Mission PlansIn review, let me just say that I still wasn't positive about Greg. I had pretty well decided to give him a chance but I was also deep in the process of getting my mission papers ready to submit. May I also add, Greg was NOT aware of this. I felt weird telling him about it, so I didn't. But that was always in the background.
Nevermind, Bro.After a couple weeks of our little dating-hanging-out thing, Greg still wasn't doing anything. He wasn't setting actual dates and he wasn't trying to hold my hand anything. I had made an OATH with myself at the very beginning that I wouldn't initiate the important things in our relationship (physical and dating etc.) so I was not going to tell him to hold my hand or take his. I was making him make the decision (training him not to be a scaredy cat).
I finally reached a point that I decided I didn't want to bother trying to date him. Greg sometimes would say jokes that weren't nice about himself, and I didn't like it, so I shut down a little bit. I do that. I backed off completely. I didn't invite him over for hanging out, and he didn't suggest it anyways, and he didn't ask me on a real date. Things just kind of stopped.
Awkward TimesGreg was as offended as he could be (which isn't a lot) by my sudden backing off, so he decided for a little bit he'd back off too. Oh joy and happiness. That was a fun time.
I am SO awkward. Let me give you an example. I went to a soccer game with my roommates and we happened to be sitting a few rows up from Greg and his roommates. My roommate pointed them out to me and asked if I wanted her to get their attention. I think she didn't hear my emphatic NO because she yelled to them and they turned around and waved. I about died cause I'd been so weird lately and I just hid my face in my other roommate's shoulder. Greg referenced this later as being kind of awkward. Norly?
He texted me after a few weeks to apologize for not being a good friend. He didn't really say anything about the awkwardness, but his apology made me feel bad because he didn't know what he'd done wrong to make me back off. Bah. I'm not good socially.
So that period lasted a couple months. Then I went to California with my family for Christmas. While I was there I had a change of heart. I don't really know what caused it. All of a sudden I just sort of missed Greg. Just a little bit. It softened me enough so that when I went back to Utah I agreed to hanging out with him again and he was cute and fun and cocky and I was like, "Bah. Fiiine. Let's try this again."
Going in this time, however, I said I had to be completely honest about some things. Like the aforementioned self-deprecating jokes. They stopped promptly upon my noting them. He's getting real good. I also told him about my mission plans, which he thought was great.
Thus ends the third installment of our story, and the actual beginning of our relationship. Kinda. Almost.